Recently I posted a picture on my Instagram page wearing a shirt that says, “self lovin’” (and no, this is not a shameless plug to get you to follow me on Instagram but if you’re interested you can follow your girl @oliviaflanagan.x lol). I hashtagged “more self love” and instead of writing a novel with my post, which I can be known for doing, I figured I would just write a blog about it instead.
Self love is something that I am a very strong advocate for. This is coming from the girl who never thought highly of herself or thought that she would be seen as beautiful, honestly. I mean my mom always told me but like…that’s her job right? But, I was about eighteen years old when the idea of self love and identity really struck me. I had always known that I am beautifully and wonderfully made, but it wasn’t until I literally started speaking that truth over myself that I honestly believed it. There came a point in time where I got tired of feeling like I wasn’t enough. I was tired of comparing myself to other people, wishing that I had a prettier nose, smile, face in general, body, or whatever it was that I would feel insecure about at the time. I walked around like I was confident, but I honestly was not. I am not sharing this to try to fish for compliments or receive any pity, but I am writing because I know that this is something real that a lot of young women (and even men) go through. I am here to say that you are 1,000 times enough, but you will only know that once you truly start to believe it.
If you find yourself struggling to truly love and see yourself the way that God sees you I want to share with you what helped me to be able to see myself differently. On a couple different accounts I have shared my testimony, which if you’ve never heard it it is basically that I was once this super scared girl who dealt with anxiety and panic attacks who never thought she would be healed but once she accepted her healing and chose to believe healing was hers, she overcame. I mention this part of my life because it has everything to do with who I am today and why I am able to see myself the way I do now. I have overcome this and much more in my short 22 years of life, and I am prepared for whatever else I might face causing me to have to overcome again. The point is, I once saw and believed myself to be this scared and insecure little girl but because I CHOSE healing, I chose to overcome, and I chose Jesus above anything else my vision was changed. Along with that I had a lot of self image issues, and still do on and off to this day, but when I choose Jesus I am choosing to see myself for who I truly am. God doesn’t create junk and He most certainly does not make mistakes. If Song of Solomon 4:7 says, “you are altogether beautiful my darling, there is no flaw in you,” then there is no flaw in me! If Psalm 139:14 says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, then I am! The Bible is pretty black and white here people, it’s not really up for debate. You are what God says you are. Love the skin you’re in. Love the way that God made you and confidently walk in truth knowing that He does not make mistakes. Beauty is confidence. Love the way that you smile, love the way that you talk, the way that you walk, the way that you dance, sing, laugh, the cheesy jokes you make because whatever it is that makes you you is a beautiful thing. Enjoy being you…because there’s no one else that can be you, and that alone makes you pretty great.